I am sorry for your great loss. May you find comfort in Psalms 34:18 "Jehovah is close to the brokenhearted. He saves those who are crushed in spirit " . Our heavenly Father does not leave us without hope of seeing our love ones again. Acts 24 :15 assures us "There is going to be a resurrection ." The true God Jehovah said at Isaiah 25: 8 "He will swallow up death forever, And the Sovereign Lord Jehovah will wipe away the tears from all faces...For Jehovah himself has spoken it" May your warm memories also give you strength to endure these difficult times. With Deep Sympathy!